320 WITH KITCHENEK IH THE SOUDAN It is a terrible resx)onsibility that I am tearing you. I well know that you will do all dear, that it is possible for you to do to avoid the necessity for sending these letters. That 1 quite approve, if you can struggle on. God strengthen you to do it ! It is only if you fail that I say send them. My father may by this time regret that he drove me from home ; he may be really anxious to find me, and at least it is right that he should have the opportunity of making what amends he can. From my sisters I know that you can have little but sympathy, but that Ifeel sure they will give you, and even sympathy is a great deal to one who has no friends. I feel it sorely that I should have naught to leave you but my name and this counsel. Earnestly I hope and pray that it may never be needed.

Yours till death, GREGORY HILLIARD HARTLEY.

Gregory then opened the letter to his grandfather.

Dear Father, You will not receive this letter till after my death. I leave it behind me while I go up with General Hicks to the Soudan. It will not be sent to you unless I die there. I hope that long ere this you may have felt, as I have done, that we were both somewhat in the wrong in the quarrel that separated us. You, I think, were hard ; I, no doubt, was hasty. You, I think, assumed more than was your right in demanding that I should break a promise that I had given to a lady against whom nothing could be said save that she was undowered. Had I, like Geoffrey, been drawing large sums of money from you, you would necessarily have felt yourself in a position to have a very strong voice in so important a matter. But the very moderate allowance I received while at the University was never increased. I do not think it is too much to say that for every penny I have got from you Geoffrey has received a guinea.

However, that is past and gone. I have been fighting my own battle, and was on my way to obtaining a good position.