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FROM TOSAYE TO FAFA 171 little corner of earth in the river, our river, where our fate was really to be decided.
If I said that I slept peacefully and well that night I do not suppose any one would believe me.
To face tangible dangers in a struggle with nature or with one's fellow men, greater or less courage is required, but what we had to do now was to meet such hidden risks, as the miner who goes to his work, not knowing at what moment he may be suffocated, blown up, or crushed to PALAVKK AT GAo.
death. Even the miner, however, gets accustomed to the risk he runs, but what no one ever becomes used to is the long mental fatigue of the responsibility of knowing that one mischosen word, perhaps even one wrongly translated word, will be enough to doom to destruction all those who have joined their fortunes with yours with full confidence in you, for whom you are all and everything for the time being.
Father Hacquart slept no better than I did that anxious night. Would he have slept if I had let him retire to his couch? Who can tell? I needed his counsel and his